Today JamieRidler asks us “What do you wish to rise above?”
I read the prompt this morning and immediately the word (and feeling of) anger popped into my awareness.
I desperately want to rise above my anger towards one of the most important people in my life. I know anger is always a cover up for another feeling and in this case it’s hurt feelings.
I wish I could magically just let go of the hurt, pain and anger and I’m doing my best to. I want to be the kind of person who can say (and really mean it) – it’s ok; I know you’re human and you’re doing the best you can; just like me and everyone else.
Forgiveness is something that I want to do for both of us but when I feel like somehow I’ve been placed in the wrong I can’t do it. I can’t put my feelings out there and then be chastised and told that it’s my own fault I feel bad. How do I forgive after opening myself up and then being told that I’m somehow to blame for other people’s behaviour and choices? I’m having a very hard time with that.
Why do people have such a hard time hearing about feelings? Why is it so hard to listen - I mean really listen, listening in a way that you can hear the meaning and not just the words?
It’s hard to be angry and sad at the same time – have you ever noticed that?