Thursday, May 30, 2013

Daddy’s Little Girl

Today is the 2 year anniversary of my father's death and I want to share this post again that I originally published on August 15th, 2011.

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Jon and I have a weekly breakfast date Saturday mornings at the Antrim Truck Stop where we go over the past week and talk about the upcoming one and enjoy a couple of hours of uninterrupted time just for us. The company is always good, the breakfast is the best and the service is pretty good too so we always leave a little more relaxed than we were when we arrived.

One morning in late winter I noticed a young father and his young daughter in a booth across from ours and they held my attention. My initial thought was that it was a Dad enjoying ‘his’ weekend with his daughter and I couldn’t help but notice their interaction. The dad looked to be about 25 or 26 and the daughter about 4. The connection between them was tangible. Dad was so very clearly interested in everything his little girl had to say. With rapt attention he listened to her and in subtle ways encouraged her to eat her breakfast. She chattered on as little people do with excited and animated words and movements. She was certainly enjoying her father’s attention and any observer could tell that she was used to having it. She was a much loved daughter who knew it and relished it. There was no rushing or cell phone, there were no raised voices or cranky words; there was only patience and love. When their breakfast was done Dad helped her into her long winter coat and gently eased her long hair from the back and smoothed it down before he plopped her toque on top of her head. She let out a little giggle, reached for her Dad’s hand and with them smiling at each other they left the restaurant. I sat there a little stunned and more than a little moved. I had tears running down my cheeks from the obvious love and affection between them. I feel blessed to have seen such a simple touching moment between a father and his little girl.

This little girl is going to grow up knowing without a doubt that she’s worthy of love and attention. Her father has gifted her with everything a little girl needs to grow into a confident and healthy young woman and maybe eventually a parent herself.

I lost my Dad only a few months ago and every Saturday when we’re out for our breakfast date I think of the young dad with his young daughter and it makes me sad to realize that there can be no more touching moments or conversations with my Dad, no more breakfasts or glasses of wine together; just memories good and not so good; both of which I know I’ll cherish forever. But I have to believe I’m still my Daddy’s little girl.


Wednesday, May 29, 2013

52 Photos Project - Uncommon Shapes

This week at 52 photos it's uncommon shapes. When I first read the challenge I thought it might be tricky; but I think it worked out ok.

The black and white is a departure for me - let me know what you think!




Saturday, May 25, 2013

Full Flower Moon Dream Board


I've been doing dream boards/vision boards for years - some days they are easy as anything and other days it's a little like pulling teeth. Today was a little like pulling teeth. Tough and painful. I put together one board, looked at it and started to cry. Not because I saw myself in it - but because I didn't.

I took a few deep breaths, a little walk around my house, a few puppy snuggles and started fresh.

This is what I came up with the second time....



When I look at this one I can see what I'm trying to tell myself and I can see how far I have yet to go. I can also see a pattern forming as I look back at my other dream boards and that feels reassuring because I know I'm heading in the right direction (maybe for the first time in my life).

**My play list for this dream board was (as it often is):

Celtic Reverie by Gordon Gibson (over and over again!)




Thursday, May 23, 2013

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

52 Photos Project - Water drops

This week at 52 Photos it's water drops. I love photographing water drops - they're so beautiful.

I couldn't decide on a single picture so here are two of my favourites.





If you enjoy flower photos here are a few other posts you might enjoy:







Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Victoria Day Weekend in Photos

Over the long weekend I took a ton of photos - about 5.5 gigs actually. 

But I'll save you from most of them. Here are the highlights...










Wednesday, May 15, 2013

52 Photos Project - Crop It

This week at 52 Photos Project the challenge is to crop a photo. It's a before and after of the same photo. 

I chose this snapshot I took of our puppy Astro a couple of years ago. I've cropped it twice because in the first I think it's interesting that you can see her reflection in the fridge and the second because she's the cutest puppy ever!

This shot wasn't taken to be an artistic photo or a skillful one...it's simply a snapshot of our very busy puppy.





Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Bookshelf Challenge


I love books. I love old books and new books and any kind of book at all. Of course I have genres that appeal to me more than others, but mostly I just love books.

I've been reading since I was 4 and I've long ago lost count of how many I've read over the last 40 years.

We live with so many of them the question I am most often asked when people see my library is "Have you actually read them all?" To which I can (and do) proudly respond with - about 98% of them; yes.



I  have 67 more shelves just like this one and I've challenged myself to read one book from each shelf gradually (and in no rush) over the next coming months. I've always been a re-reader but usually it's an intuitive thing. I'll just amble through the books and read whatever catches my eye on that particular day.

This challenge is a bit more structured. My first choice on each shelf will be the book I haven't yet read (if there is one), and if not then I'll likely reach for the one I either enjoyed the most or the least.

I'm starting with a beloved childhood classic. Little Women.

Here's a picture of my original copy...as you can see I've had it since 1974 and it cost a whole $1.29 (I can't even tell you how much I wish we could still buy books for that price!!) It's a little beat up and worse for wear but that's part of the charm of re-reading old books - especially old ones from our childhoods.



What are your beloved childhood books?


Saturday, May 11, 2013

For Mother's Day



I am thinking of the lilac-trees,
  That shook their purple plumes,
And when the sash was open,
  Shed fragrance through the room.
        ~Mrs. Anna S. Stephens
     ~The Old Apple-Tree.




Wednesday, May 8, 2013

52 Photos Project - Street Art

Street Art. Wow...this was a tough one for me. The small town I live near doesn't really have a lot of what most people would consider 'street art'. 

This is what I came up with - the only thing I could find in my little community.


And because it's not that interesting (to me) here are a couple more that I played around with.



Which one do you like the best?

Monday, May 6, 2013

Sometimes....


Sometimes all you need is a change of perspective.


Wednesday, May 1, 2013

May Day- Beltane


I spent my May Day afternoon enjoying the quiet joy of a spring afternoon. I listened to the ducks in the pond, the unending bird song and the breeze through my beloved willow trees.

May Day or Beltane is the day half way between the spring equinox and the summer solstice. It's a day to protect your livestock and celebrate the coming fertility. May Day was often celebrated with the May Pole and although I didn't dance around a pole today I did celebrate in my own quiet way.

I sat on my front steps and listened to nature around me - I celebrated the possibility of my future. I settled into myself and listened and what I heard was my truth. No babies...but new ideas...a new me.

May Day/Beltane isn't about fertility and babies to me but about birthing what's next in my life.

We all see spring right now on the calendar and new beginnings and that's how I'm looking at today. It's a new beginning for me. Bradley hasn't gone away to school yet but I'm getting ready to birth a new me...a new phase of my life.

It's not a mid-life crisis - it's a mid-life birth.

Changes are coming!




52 Photos Project - Microscopic


Even though my photography is very important to me I give myself a million reasons/excuses as to why everything else is more important. I did a short photo challenge on Facebook in March and I really enjoyed it so when I came across the 52 Photos Project it seemed like a great idea.

I'll be posting here weekly photos on a theme decided by Bella Cirovic of 52 Photos Project.

I hope you'll join me.

This week the theme is microscopic. (Isn't she pretty?)

Imperial Moth - Eastern Ontario

It's Wishcasting Wednesday



I wish to make a life that feels right and true and joyful.

My boys are grown. One has already left the nest and the other is preparing to and I'm feeling like I never thought I would. I anticipated this day with pride knowing that I've prepared them and loved them the very best I could and knowing that they're both awesome young men who will go out into the world and make real contributions.

All my thoughts about this time in our lives revolved around them and making sure they were ready and excited about their futures. I forgot about me and my feelings.

I've come to understand why women have more children later in life. The looming quiet and empty rooms is more than a little unnerving. There won't be anymore babies around here until grandbabies come along and since Jon has put his foot (very) firmly down that there also won't be any more puppies around here I have to make a new life of my own.

I'm not sure what that means yet, but I'm open to what's coming next and more than willing to be shown my path.